[Filtered to Friends, Filtered from Sylar, Mohinder]

And me, too.

We're close, and we can't risk being found out.

Talk to everyone afterwards, I hope.

Sent within the hour of getting his body back, express delivery, to arrive ASAP.

To Jou:

A phial of his blood, a syringe, and a note:

Jou,

Here, I'm really sorry I let that happen to your body. Inject it, it'll cure you. Ask Lindsey, or Gwen, its how he was saved. Really, really, do, because those injuries are sore.

Hope you're okay, thank you for looking after Claire. Really, thank you. And thank Seto from me, too, for everything.

Adam.

OW.

Pain.

This is... not new, exactly, more like... Old.

Ouch.

[Filtered to Friends, Filtered from Sylar]

Jou? Sorry, but your body is a bit ... worse for wear. I'll cure you, though, I promise.

Anyone heard from Jou? Or Claire?

If you two can read this, get in contact with me, or Set, or Peter, okay? Please, just let us know you're okay.

[Filtered to Jou, Claire, Peter, Seto]

Jou?

Jou, I don't want to scare you, but everything isn't what it seems. Peter's not in his body, we think it's Sylar.

You need to get Claire, and get out of there, as soon as you can. But I also need you to tell me - are my powers working? Cut yourself, if you can, just do it, see if it heals. We need to know if the powers stay with the body.

I'm not at Set's now, but I'm going back there, and we'll find a way to get you out of there. If you can, try not to let him know you're suspicious, but just get out of there.

Yeah, I'm not me either.

This is... different.

[Filtered to Jou]

Jou? I think you could be me... It's okay, though, Pete is in the room down the hall. Room 223. Go talk to him, it'll be fine.

Sent to San Francisco Memorial Hospital, addressed to Phoebe Halliwell:

One vial of blood, with a note.

Phoebe,

Trust me, this will cure her.

I hope it gets there on time,

Richard.

I've felt quakes and that was something different, much bigger. So we turned on the news...

Shit.

LA is ... gone. All of it.

I don't want to think about what that means for them.

Sent to both Lindsey and Gwen by express courier: two phials of blood, and a syringe.

Lindsey,

Hope this gets to you - am very aware am sending blood into a place with many vampires.

You know what do do with it, should anything happen.

And if you don't survive you'll never be able to win the 'my cell is worse' competition. See? Who said you have nothing to live for.

Adam.

Gwen,

Trust me, and use this if you need it.

Stay safe,

Adam.

[Private Entry]

Nice as the last few weeks have (and haven't) been, it's time I focused again. On the mission, on doing what I have to do.

I contacted Maury Parkman last night. He's going to do what I asked him to do, he'll be a great way to get things done without being noticed.

And in the talking he mentioned there was a girl that could find him, and that he could look back, that he had to hold her back. From what he was saying, it seems like it's the girl Mohinder and Maury's own son are attempting to raise.

I should have told him to stop, probably. But I can't have them finding him, and ruining it all, and he reckons his son would find him. So he's holding her back, keeping her away, for now.

And if that means Mohinder has to see the girl he sees as a daughter in pain, well, then he knows how Noah Bennett would feel if he could see Claire right now.

But Maury is going to do something for me. Going to get in contact with some of the 'founders' of the Company. The ones still left, my disciples who betrayed me.

And soon I can get my revenge, for real.

[Filtered to Friends, Filtered from Sylar, Mohinder...]

I'm at Gwen's, and already I feel a lot better.

And we're going to visit Lindsey today, I think. I've promised him bourbon.

I'll catch up on the memes later.

[Filtered to Friends, filtered from Sylar, Mohinder]

I'm heading to Gwen's for a few days. I'll still be around because she's as addicted to this place as I am. And hopefully I'll be less emo (though I don't think I'll ever be able to use that word with a straight face).

Anyone have any messages for Gwen they want me to pass on?

Here's the meme... I'll do the elaborating if you want.

Sorry I've been so meh lately.

( Questions, with mildly depressed answers )

[Private Entry]

I need to get this out of my system. I'm moping around, and I need to stop it. Maybe then I can feel happy for Peter and Claire.

I just... everything is a lie. And I'm fine with that, most of the tiome, but every now and then it hits me - I can never be who I really am, not with anyone. Because who I am is so divorced from all of this.

( The life and loves of Adam/Richard/Takezo Kensei... )

Just ... haven't been feeling up to journaling lately. Sorry, I've been reading journals but haven't been commenting.

[Private Entry]

I don't know why I've been in this funk, ever since we got here.

I suppose it's Claire. I'd known death before I developed this ability. My own mother, when I was only 11. Giving birth to another baby, it died too. I can't remember if it was a boy or girl. It affected me, of course, but I was young and I didn't fully understand it at the time.

Then it was school, we were wealthy enough to send me and my older brothers to a reasonably well respected one, where they barely tolerated my rebellious ways. And by the time I started to heal I'd seen much more death. I'd killed men.

And the first time I dealt with it, I didn't know that it would be the first of so many.

Nine wives. Okay, some died after they left me, some died after years with me, and one I even killed myself. But even if they all had stayed with me, they would have died in the end anyway.

And now I see Claire. She's so young, so full of life. Why did she have to get this power at such a young age? Since meeting her, I've become very attached. I feel ... almost parental. I've had children before, but they've always bored me. I feel more attached to Claire than I did to any of them. I want to protect her, to shield her from the life I know is in store.

The pain she's feeling now, she'll have to feel it over and over again.

And I want to spare her from that, but I can't.

[Filtered to Friends, Filtered from Sylar]

We're in Costa Verde, with Claire. She's fine, her dad's plan to get her back worked. They took some blood, that's all.

But her dad was shot by Mohinder. He's dead. Turns out he isn't actually going to take the Company down any more, he works for them now. Does their dirty work.

Claire is, understandably, devastated. Just want to let everyone know that she's physically fine, anyway, and we're here with her doing what we can. I'm going to head back to them now. Thanks to all who were worried and offered their help.

[Private Entry]

The Carp has my sword.

Linderman wouldn't have given it to him. I know he wouldn't. He was told to keep it safe, and he was one of the ones who was truly loyal to me.

Which means the Carp stole it.

Well, he has always been good at stealing things that are dear to me.

There's still that promise I made to him, that I fully intend to fulfill.

Not yet. But soon.

Seriously? Warm and Fuzzy?

My result

One word, Peter, and I'll make sure you regret it...

( My Interests Collage! )

I know I owe a proper update and some comments, but I haven't been online much in the last few days. I'll catch up tomorrow.

For now: to those of you not having the best week, here's to things getting better. To those of you for whom things are going well, here's to your luck holding.

I've been introduced to the phemomena of daytime TV.

Between this and those teenagers I was forced to be near on the beach yesterday, it's confirmed a lot of things I'd been long suspecting about humanity.

[Filtered to Claire]

It was great chatting to you the other day. Hope you're doing better now you know Peter is. If you ever need anything, I'm here.